Incandescent Living Reality #2: Your Journey Matters!

For some of you, the journey to discovering that you were born to communicate probably didn’t happen overnight. It may have come as a quiet nagging voice that just wouldn’t go away, until you finally just succumbed to the inevitable.

Incandescent Living- Reality #2

For others, you may have known almost since you were born that you had something to say to the world—and darn it—they better get ready to hear it. That’s kinda what happened to me. Being a writer was something I aspired to as a child. It was something I dreamed of for hours on end; telling stories, communicating ideas, reaching people and changing their lives. That’s what I wanted more than anything. I just wanted to make a difference.

As a child, I knew what I wanted, and I put everything I had towards becoming that. I poured my soul into words. They weren’t great words. They weren’t wonderful stories. But that wasn’t the point, because they were mine. To ten-year-old me, this was the perfect life.

It’s funny, though, the way growing up works. As a ten-year-old, I thought things would get better. Easier. Clearer. I thought I’d be a published author by at least fourteen—if I was slow. Well, guess what? I’m nearly twenty and I still have not published a work of fiction. And I’m glad.

Growing up was nothing like I thought it’d be. Things didn’t get clearer. They certainly didn’t get easier—and—at the time, I didn’t think they were better. Sometimes they weren’t.

Instead, my vision got blurry. The road got rocky, and I felt like a much older person than fifteen. There were a hundred new things to worry about, and a thousand new things to confuse me. I wasn’t sure what I should do—what I could do. I wasn’t even sure who I was.

I had labels like “friendly”, “amusing”, “creative”, “smart”, and, “that-writer-girl”—things people told me I was. Things I could barely believe sometimes. I didn’t have friends. I didn’t find myself particularly funny, and my muse was gone. Smart was a stretch, because I couldn’t figure out my own life. And writing? Well, fourteen was passed. Maybe I wasn’t the “good writer” everybody thought I was.

I became very discouraged. What if I wasn’t who everyone thought I was—or wanted me to be? Maybe that was why I felt like I had no friends in high school. Maybe I just wasn’t living up to people’s standards.

When I was sixteen, something happened that started a transformation in me. It began to change me from the insecure child to the determined woman I am now. I’ve talked about the One Year Adventure Novel Curriculum before, and when I say it changed my life—I’m dead serious.

It gave me the connections and the tools I needed to develop my voice as a novelist, which, by extension, helped me see the world in a new light. It helped me to understand myself and the things I wanted to say.

Of course, it wasn’t always easy. There were still many times when I felt like I had to be the kind of writer someone else told me to be—that I had to write a certain kind of material that was “the right thing”. There were still times when I lost track of myself amidst the pressures of others.

And the reality is—that’s an ongoing thing. There will always be pressures put on me to “do this” or “be that” or “write this way”, but OYAN got me to think differently about writing. It unleashed a creativity that wasn’t even close to being there before.

It helped me realize that I’d spent years trying hard to become something that I already was: a writer. Today, writing is still my passion, but now I’ve found my muse—and it’s you. Every day, I get excited about you and the potential you have to make a difference with your voice.

And I’m going to cry over this, because, as hard as my journey has been towards understanding who I really am and what I was really meant to do—I am so thankful. You are an incredible, creative person, and I want to see you succeed to the maximum. I want to see you as the person you were created to be: one who lives each day incandescently.

And the journey to fully discovering and maximizing the creative power of your voice matters—to me yes, and more importantly—to those whom you will impact in the future.  Are you ready to take that journey together?

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7 thoughts on “Incandescent Living Reality #2: Your Journey Matters!

  1. Wow, this is so very true. I think for me, I didn’t fully conceptualize the idea that I wanted to be a writer until I was probably 12 or 13. I do remember one day when I was 8 and devouring a Boxcar Children Mystery when the thought hit me, “Boy, it would be fun to create a story like this, you could do whatever you wanted.” But I didn’t really get it until years later. I think being a writer came as a natural part of me, whether I could recognize it or not. I thought and spoke as a writer, without realizing it. And then I went through a very dry spell, similar to how you describe yours, I didn’t have any hope or pleasant thoughts towards writing. I grew very discouraged and did the worst possible thing, I stopped writing for the most part. I didn’t rediscover it until I was 16 and decided to try for Nanowrimo. That one single month of late nights and furiously pounding out on a keyboard was kind of my version putting the fleece out overnight. Wow, that one month did so much for me. It reaffirmed to me that writing was an important part of who I am, that not writing had caused a large part of me to feel hollow and empty, and that I didn’t need to be afraid of failing.

    I used to have a goal of having something published before I was 18. I’m almost 19 now and I am still struggling to get blog followers. 😉 But that’s ok, part of growing up and realizing your goals and aspirations is putting realistic expectations on them. I’m not Wonder Woman, I’m Grace. My journey as a writer will take many twists and turns, and some unexpected journeys, but in the end, it will all be worth it.

    Thanks for sharing.

    • Wow, Grace, that is a beautiful story. Thank you so much for sharing!

      I love what you said about writing being a natural part of you, though you didn’t recognize it until later. I think that’s something that many of us go through. There is a piece of us that is always there–and yet we don’t discover it until later. It’s a journey, and it’s not always an easy one, but it’s exciting and incredibly fulfilling to know that you were made for a purpose. Discovering that for the first time is one of the best things in the world.

      I love your story. Thank you again for sharing it here. Keep up the great work!

  2. Wow, that was amazing. Thank you so much for sharing. This really resounded with me, it sounds very similar to my writing journey. It’s good to know that I’m not alone out there and that other people have had similar struggles.